Monday, December 28, 2009

Dear Anas, Dear Kat - A Preface

Dear beautiful little Anas,
I appreciate all of your feedback - positive, angry, and everything in between.

I'll be blogging more about what happened to kat, more about our lives together (there's a reason she's not said much about me in her blog, which i hope to begin address in the next blog post), my life with my best friend Ana, and some of the thought processes that brought me where I am today: happy, safe, and free from Ana's tyranny over my life. That said, I have a unique perspective to share with you since I've been on the inside looking out, and was able to find a path to happiness. I used to get so pissed off at shrinks, pastors, and "friends" who thought they had the "easy answer." I know a hell of a lot better than that. I know the many different places all of you are in in your own journey, and I therefore have a TREMENDOUS amount of compassion and understanding for the difficulties you endure just in your day to day existence. My hope is that, in time, you can view me as the big sister you never had, and the one I have, in many ways, failed to be for Kat.

I hope Kat is reading this. She left my house on Christmas eve and we haven't spoken much since then. I love her. I miss her. I'm heartbroken. But I'm a fool in love and I have to see this through.

And, just to set the record straight for those of you who missed the earlier posts, Kat took down the blog of her own free will - deleted her posts, and all. No one made her do it. I went to her blog and saw the URL was free. I knew I had to tell my story now. You all met Kat in chapter 3. I'm Kate, "Kat's" big sister, and I'm going to start with Chapter 1.

i love you "kat."

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  1. I'm willing to give you a chance..and I'm curious to know your story. I hope Kat is reading this too..and I hope she knows just how much we all miss her.

  2. Hey big sister,
    I am reading this. I'm so sorry about Christmas Eve...I never wanted to break your heart. :( I think your blog will do some good though, better than I ever could.


  3. I'll read this only because I want to know what Kat is up to....

  4. Im following for sure... i really wanna know about you ana life (as over as it may be) from an analytical perspective. It's delightfully close to home